时日无多

这种感觉是突然间来袭的。
当我看到了这个：
11 Things that make you cry at the end of university (http://www.thedailytouch.com/sean/11-things-that-made-you-cry-at-the-end-of-university/)
很突然的，这篇文章似乎提醒了我什么，我恍然大悟--时间不多了！

This feeling was came in a sudden.
While I saw this: 11 Things that make you cry at the end of university
The article was just like a reminder which reminded me something, I got a shock and realised, I am running out of time!

真的，我的大学学院生涯，我的念书时光，所剩无几了！
感觉很恐怖，我不想那么快就结束。
这好像是最后了，过完了这些时日，我就再也没有机会念书，再也没有机会当个青涩的学生了。

It's true, the time in university college and the time for studying are left nothing much.
It feels horrible, I don't want it to be ended so fast.
But seems like it really comes to the end, after these days pass through, I will no longer have the chance to study anymore, I will no longer a student anymore.

我不想放下我的书包；不想脱下我的球鞋。
尽管有时书本很难啃，考试很难捱，但我不想我从小到大对了十多年的生活和习惯就这样被逼着改变。很残酷，总是逼着我把这些都变成往后的回忆。明明现在似乎抓得住，但却怎么也抓不牢。明明我此时此刻还是个学生，但下一刻却什么都不是了。

I don't want to put down my bag; I don't want to take off my shoe.
Even though sometimes there are some hard times to be gone through, lots of revisions and to sit for the exams. I don't wanna change my habit and lifestyle which brought from childhood but I am forced to change. It's so cruel, life always forces me to transform the things become a pass. It seems like I can hold it now, but I couldn't hold it tight. Obviously I am still a student now but it could be nothing by the next second. 

没有错的话，3月31日就是我念书的最后一天。
剩下半个月的时间，感觉好像只剩下一秒钟。下一秒将会化为乌有。

If I am not mistaken, 31st of March will be last day of my study.
About half month left, but it feels like only one second left, and the next second will turn to be nothing left.

四年，就这样来到尾声了。
说过不让自己做后悔的事，但怎么感觉总有些遗憾留在了学院生涯里。
感觉好像有太多事情没有完成。
感觉四年时光好像浪费太多在念书。

Four years, and it comes to an end.
I had promised myself for not regretting myself in doing everything, but at the end there are still some regrets happened in my college life.
I feel like I have too much tasks that I haven't completed.
And seems like I have wasted too much time on studying.

我错过了大家最最疯狂的时候；错过了大家最最活跃的时候。
尽管后两年我已经很努力的去追回错过的岁月，但却力不从心了。
有看开了一点，学会了一点，但错过的岁月与回忆也追不回来了。

For example, I had had missed the crazy times with them, and the times when they were enjoying to the extreme. 
Even though I tried my best to capture the missing time in the last 2 years, but I couldn't catch up all.
Yes I have already learnt to see widely but the truth is that the moment I have missed out is no longer recoverable. 

此刻开始，我更要看完学校的每一株树木每一棵花草、每一个地方每一个角落，并尽量把它们记起来，让以后的自己回味那些年青涩的自己。

Started from this moment, I want to see each and every of the trees and flowers, places and corners in the college. I want to remember them so that I can recall what I see today in the later days and years.

虽然，我四年的学院生活可能没有别人那么的充实与精彩，但这就是属于我的故事。
或许比较烦闷，比较贫乏，但我还是很开心我这四年铺出了属于我自己的故事。
其实也没有白白浪费，这四年里，我看见了许多，也学会了许多。
这许多，是书本里所没有的，很珍贵的知识。

Though, my four years college study life may not be as wonderful as others, but this is the story that only belong to me.
Perhaps it is quite boring and dull, however I am still happy that I have composed my-own-self story.
Indeed it cannot be saying that it is wasted, instead I have learnt and saw a lot of things within these 4 years.

谢谢每一位陪我走过这四年的人和物、每一位曾经出现在这四年生活里的人和物。
没有你们，就没有属于我的故事，也没有属于我和你们的故事。
谢谢你们，让我学会成长，让我学会更多，看见更多。
怀着一颗感恩的心，开始回顾这四年的求学生活。

Thanks everyone who had accompanied me in these 4 years, and everyone who had appeared in these 4 years
Without you, it would not form the story of me, and the story between us.
Thank you for guiding me all the ways passed by, you all have inspired me to learn more than what I could learn.
Started to look retrospectively for the 4 years study life, with a grateful heart.

MH 370

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=438332209633805

这是一段一针见血，说出大家心声的短片。

帮不上什么忙，只能不断的祈祷祝福。

心里很苦涩，很心酸。

This video is straight to the point, showing what we would like to say in our heart.
We couldn't help on it, what we can do is just keep praying.
My heart feels pain and sad.

感动的是世界各地，不分你我的一起为了寻找它和他们而努力。没有战争，和睦共处的感觉真的很好。

It touched me when I saw from the photo the whole worlds are trying their best to find them. No war but live in peace, it is great.

然而伤心的程度永远不及他们的家人朋友。

这种是人间悲剧，真的不希望事情变得更糟糕。

不想看见他们的家人伤心欲绝、哭成泪人。真心希望尽快有个结果，无论是喜是悲，至少，他们的家人不再被未知的结果再折磨下去。但愿，希望总是在后头。

However I will never sadder than their families and friends. 
This is the tragedy in the world. I sincerely hope that this issue will not be going more worse.
I don't want to see their families in sorrow and crying. Do hope that the result could be found as soon as possible, no matter it is good or bad. At least, their families will not be tortured by the unknown result anymore. I wish, the hope is always comes at the end.

压力

话说现在是凌晨六点半，莫名其妙的从床上爬起，没什么可以发挥，只好让自己温习。
其实我没有想象中勤劳，我也不愿意那么早起，这一切我看就是拜昨天晚餐那壶茶所赐。

还以为是什么事情害我睡不着，脑子里不断的想些有的没的。
睡不着有时真的蛮难熬的。能够感觉到身体很累，但脑袋却带着少有的清晰。

想了很多很多事情，好像都不是很开心的事。
想着一些恼人的事情；一些课业上的东西；一些未来课业上的压力；金钱的压力；未来的惶恐和期待，心情矛盾；回忆着往事，百感交集。
原来我也真的面对着不同的压力。亏我还很自豪很得意的告诉妈妈说我觉得我很好，我没有压力。但自认没有压力的我却一直掉发，恐怕有天真的秃头了，我还期待到那天我就会发达了。

虽然掉发不能说明什么，可能也不是压力的造成，但要说明的是，压力是在无形中来袭的。
起初我不知道什么是压力，只是看见身边的人因为压力这玩意儿很烦恼很不开心，我只知道它是一个不好的东西。让我自己真正体会的时候不是没有，只是目前为止我都控制得还不错。

有，曾经压力到大哭的时候，也不是完全不知道压力是什么东东。
现在虽然不至于大哭，但只要想到未来要面对的还未完成的东西，心中就有一种恐惧。
除了恐惧，竟然还夹带着一份抗拒、反感、恶心。
很想逃避，但却又得逼自己去完成。归根究底还不是因为自己当初的选择？因此无论如何都无法避免，因为我不想做一个没用、只会逃避的人。

我要做一个负责任的人、一个经得起考验的人。
而且，那些并不是什么很艰难的任务，只不过是心里有一种说不出的抗拒而已。

这份恐惧及抗拒心理就是压力吗？
不想做但得逼自己去完成，真的，很不愿意。

但只要熬过了，就像之前考试那样，只需一下下，再一下下，就好了。

我看我只能靠着这句话，劝自己逼自己在心理上与自己进行小小的战斗，去迎合接下来一连串需要完成的东西。

然后我要更爱我自己，对自己说声：你很棒，你做到了！

看电影

电影，我并没有多大的兴趣。
起初我还有点抗拒，觉得不值得浪费十多块去电影院看一部电影，因为只是时间的问题，反正迟些时候人们就能从各个管道下载或购买这些电影。

后来，我开始试着接受。
真正让我对电影有兴趣的，就是《铁达尼号》。很意外的和朋友一起在电影院看了这部电影，那个大荧幕，那一幕幕壮观的画面，都还历历在目。是这部电影，改变了我起初对看电影的概念。

因此我有了新的一个观念，就是，除非那部电影是很震叹的，效果很抓眼球剧情高潮迭起的，我才会有兴趣到电影院去观看，不然我真的不会花钱去看一部故事平凡又简单的电影。

再来，我发现与自己一起看电影的对象也是很重要的。
我出入电影院的次数屈指可数，但我绝对清楚我想要什么样的人陪我看电影。
当然除了这种刺激性的电影，我也喜欢故事内容很有意义的电影。


就像《铁达尼号》，如果它第二次上映，尽管是一样的剧情，尽管我已经看过了，我还是会选择再看一次，而下一次，我希望和我想要的人一起去。我想和对方分享整部电影的高潮迭起、心情起伏，从微笑到流泪，从温馨到感动。这算是我一个对未来小小的愿望。

现在有另一部电影，《一路有你》。大家一定不陌生，而身边大部分人一定也已看过了。
这部戏虽然是本地制作，但它获得非常好的评语。因此我一直很想找机会去看。

但有点可惜，这部戏快要下映了，我还是没有找到陪我去看的人。
身边的好朋友都已经和别人去看了，哦，是的我迟了一步。

身边朋友都知道我不太爱看电影，因此很少人约我去看电影。而我也不曾要求过要看什么电影，但《一路有你》是一部我很想看的电影，或许我觉得它的剧情很温馨，很有含义。
很难得很难得我会主动约人，我冒着被拒绝的风险，约了一个很难应付的人，但还是不成。
于是，我决定不看了。

也许你觉得我小题大作，一部电影，看了就好，与人无关。
但我不能，尽管电影题材再好，故事再吸引，不对的人就是不一样的感觉。
我希望一部有意义的电影，也会由一些有意义的人陪我一起看，这样感觉才能完整。

就是基于这种种原因，我最后选择不看 。
对，我宁愿不看，也提不起别的心情与别人看。

我不会觉得遗憾，如果要说遗憾，与不对的人看电影对我来说才是一种遗憾吧？
因此心情还可以保持轻松愉快，因为我还是期待着下一部电影的到来，期待对的人与我一起看。

一路有你

嗯，新年的天气似乎已开始褪去，天上下起的雨已经开始洗去大地上的热气，天气再次变化了。

这是个循环，季节性的循环，尽管大马没有国外的一年四季，天气依然变幻无常。

Emm, the weather during CNY is started to go and the the sky is started to rain to get rid of the heat. The weather is changing. This is a recycle, a seasonal recycle even if there is no such four seasons in Malaysia, but the weather keeps changing.

最近有太多的故事，想要在此作分享。

曾我还未忘记，先说说友情吧！

There are a lot of stories to be shared here. Before I forget it, let's talk about friendship.

我真的心怀感激，我能够在这个充满矛盾、复杂的世界上遇上与我频道相同的人。

朋友之间，不只是要频道相同，还要懂得适当的谦让。最基本的礼貌、尊重及信任都是维持友情中不能少的元素。

I sincerely appreciate that I met the peoples who are same channel with me in this contradicting and complicating world. It's not only about the issue of "channel" but there is humility among friends. The most basic courtesy, respect and trust are the main elements to maintain a friendship.

嘉慧，是我在小学认识的朋友。她现在是我一个能够分享一切事物的人。

我们讨论的东西，上及天文地理，下及身边事物。

我们愿意互相倾听、包容、帮助、鼓励。

我在她身上学会了许多，最让我印象深刻应该就是学会大方。

函颖也是一位教会我大方的人。

以前的我把钱看得比较重，可是现在反而一点也不再计较。的确，不再计较这些身外物，人也变得轻松多了。

虽然我们之间不至于像家人般亲密，但你为我做的一切，我都不会忘记。

包括我不会忘记我一封简讯一个电话，你就会毫无考虑的答应我的请求。

那天早晨电话吵醒了你，还要求你特地驾车到我家载我和我妈出去，我真的很抱歉。

但你却二话不说，为了我的一个不情之请，改变了原本的计划与时间。

我真的很感动，因为不是每一位在身边的朋友都能够这样付出。当然，有你一位就真的很足够了。你我不是家人，不是男女朋友，但你却不断地帮助我，真的非常感谢。

Kar Hui, who was my primary school mate, also a person whom I can share her everything about my life. We used to discuss everything, perhaps astrology and geography. We are willing to listen, forgive, help and encourage each other. I have learnt so many things from her, including to be generous. It's true, I never ever care of those physical stuff such as money and I felt relax after I get rid of all those fusses. Although we are not close like family but I will never forget what you have done for me. I will not forget that you just simply promised to help me out because of a message or a call. I am sorry for awakening you on that morning and requesting for fetching me and my mother to town. You just promised me by changing your initial planned time and schedule and promised to take us up and finally you came. I felt so touch because I knew that not everyone around me can do this for me, even if it was not a big deal. And I felt satisfied and enough to have you as my friend, you always show your kindness to me though we are not family or couple.   

德全，这几天也是非常感谢你。感谢你和Ah Ball昨晚听我发牢骚，同样的牢骚讲了一遍又一遍，但你们还是不厌其烦的听进去，并给于我最好的意见，我真的非常感谢。

谢谢德全那么的明白我，一直到今早起床，第一句想起的话就是你告诉过我的，就是那么的一句，让我心情变轻松了。你告诉我一切只需要时间，你能够明白我，这是我非常高兴的。

我喜欢能够倾听我的人，谢谢你们。

Darren, another person whom I would like to say thank you to. Thank you Darren and Ah Ball for listening to me last night. I keep repeating the same thing yet both of you were listening and giving me the most pertinently advice, I will appreciate it. Thanks for your understanding. The first sentence that came to my mind in this early of the morning when I woke up was what you told me last night, and it made my day. You told me everything has to depends on time and I need it, I need some times to accommodate the changes. This is great, and I like the person who can listen to me, once again, thanks.

其实我觉得我是个不能抱怨太多的人，因为我拥有的已经很多了，太充足了。

对于朋友，我不能够说我很有义气，我不知道如何去运用“义气”这个东西，我只知道在他们需要我的时候，我会在他们身边支持他们，尽我所能帮助他们，让最好的结果呈现。

I knew I couldn't keep blaming too much as I already possessed as much as I want, it is more than enough.

For friend, I couldn't be saying that I am very supportive, the only thing I knew is to support them, try my best to help them whenever they need me to have the best outcome.

我不喜欢吵架，翻脸，尽管朋友间发生了一些争执，我也希望一切可以被时间冲淡。

今天我突然的就说出了这样的一段话：

我们人生中一直都存在着遗憾。就像朋友，因为一些事情而不再联系，彼此的世界再也没有对方。这是一个永远存在的遗憾。或许在当时，眼中所看出来的一切都很让人生气，让人觉得自己可以失去这个朋友，但是我觉得当人到了七老八十，甚至变成一缕尘埃后，什么事情都变得微不足道了。回头看，可能会一笑置之，也可能会笑自己当初的傻气，但却笑不走那留下的遗憾。

I don't like argument and fell out, I hope that time will be the solution for all the problems rising up. 

Today I quoted this:

There is regret that always exist in our life. Just like friend, they would not be friend anymore after some problems emerged, and this would regret them forever or for a life time. Perhaps it is annoying and infuriating at that time the problems rise up, and it makes people to decide they rather to lose this friend and it would not cause something bad. However, when we reached the old age, or when we left this world, only we realised that everything can be solved and it doesn't matter. Look back to our life, we may laugh at what we did, and the foolish decision we ever made, but we can't laugh to deny and wipe off the things made our life regretful.

我们人生说长不长，说短不短，为什么还要留下那么多的遗憾？世上那么多人，却让你结识到现在的朋友，终于经营起了之间的友情，却因为一些“小事”而断绝来往。

不值得。

Our life is not that long, but not that short as well. Why do we want to regret so much on ourselves? There are numerous peoples in this world, and you met your own friends, building and maintaining the current friendships and you just let them go at the end just because of some small matters.

It's not worth.

当然我也明白，不是每件事都可以大事化小，小事化无，但往往事情很多时候，可以利用很多种方法去避免的。如果真的不想让友情结束，人就变得不再计较那么多。

Of course I knew, not that everything can be forgave, and forgotten. However there is such a moment, we can have many ways to solve them. And if you hope to continue your friendship, you would not be so calculative.

但当然每个人的观念不一样，我是以朋友为准，其他的事情都可商量，毕竟我不想因为一些可以避免、可以被解决的事情而影响之间的友情。

But of course there are different opinions for different persons. For me I will rank my friends as the first, then go with any other things. I just don't want my friendships being influenced by some issues which could be avoided or overcome.

可能退一步海阔天空，只要让那一步，直到七老八十两个老朋友还是可以坐在一起对饮，那是人生中多么畅快的事？是好是坏，随着时间一切都过去了。只要不是杀人放火众叛亲离，是否一切争执都有希望被解决？

Perhaps you may step back one step and maybe because of this one step you took, the situation or the outcome could be changed. And two friends could still having their teas by sitting face to face to each other for many years later, and how good the feels are for having this scene? Good or bad, just let it be with the time pass. So long as your friend not murdering or betraying, is it true to say that everything could be solved?

Friendship isn't how you forget, but how you forgive.

Not how you listen, but how you understand.

Not how you seem but how you feel.

Not how you let go, but how you hold on!

我只希望我身边的朋友能够全部一起携手走到老，一天的朋友，一辈子的朋友。

尽管争执不是发生在我身上，我都希望而我也会尽最大努力去维持之间的感情。

或许我是多管闲事？我只能说，我只是不想我身边的朋友在人生中有多一个遗憾。

I just truthfully hope that all the friends around me can go through all the obstacles together as long as possible. Friend today, friend forever. 

Although I do not have argument with my friends, but I hope and I will try my best to maintain the relationship among us and others.

Perhaps I am a busy body? Who'd care? The only thing I can say is, I don't want any of them around me to regret themselves.