下一次需要更好的道别

如果我能够再早点意识到时间的流逝，那么我就能把握到更多时间留下更多的记忆,做出更好的道别。

时间真的在不知不觉中，悄悄地溜走。原来那么快，就已经来到了这个engagement的尾声。我竟然在最后一刻才意识到，我应该在最后的这个星期，用手机拍下我这半年来每天重复走过的路，每天看着窗外美丽的景色，每天工作的地方，每天见面的人儿。

记得去年同一个时候，我还恨不得时间赶快过，因为我已经不想再待在那里。去年是我们第一年audit这个client。许多事情，许多内部的系统，许多检查的步骤，都显得有点杂乱。因为缺乏经验，因为不熟悉。面对的client都很冷漠，甚至有点无情。我们恨不得赶快结束这个job，因为已经做得很疲惫，想要立刻抽身离开。

离开半年后，第二年的audit又即将开始。Manager问我是否要再做这个job，其实我也已经做好充足的心理准备去应付这场难打的战，因此我答应了。还记得在这个job开始前我还特地来到了部落格安抚鼓励自己。转眼间，第二年的audit竟又结束了。

这是个有准备的第二年。我可以很大声地说，我从不后悔再次加入这次的audit。比较起第一年，我们算是大有进步。效率也好了，client也对我们熟悉了，感觉不再那么难应付。这几个月来，虽然每天都早出晚归，但我依然觉得很充实很开心。

尽管每天对着电脑荧幕，对着同样的几张脸，但我每一天早晨醒来还是对工作有所期待的。因为我们相处得很开心。虽然我们工作很忙碌，但我们总算是一起完成，逐步逐步的做完每一个步骤。

我，竟然才意识到昨天很可能是我最后一天待在那里了，半年后的事情没有人能够猜测，而接下来我又必须去下一个engagement开始另一个client的audit了。突然的万般不舍。尤其是从3月开始，teammate都陆续到下一个engagement去帮忙了，整个team剩下不到5个人，从分坐在两个meeting room缩减到一个只能容纳4人的房间。可以明显感觉到我们剩下的这几个人感情不断的升温。

真的很不懂得应付这种内心衍生出的不舍的感觉。今年遇到的client也很好。也没有想到还有一两个可以聊到工作以外的话题。到最后才发现，其实人情味在那里还是有的。需要的只不过是时间，等着我们去发掘。

我一直都很珍惜我们相遇有缘在一起工作的大家。他们总是让我成为一个更有价值的人。虽然不是完全分离，但在一起工作的缘分不晓得是否已经走到了尽头。

此别也不知道下一次是否还有机会再一起合作打天下。如果我还在这间公司，就算第三年的audit我还有份参与，但可能我的teammate们已经全换了个脸孔。

对这种感觉不知所措，但无论如何，我还是必须感谢所有的teammate，感谢他们这半年来给过的帮助，也包容我大大小小的错误。感谢咱们的managers，他们真的是一群很能干，很有责任感的人。

今年的我们好像没什么全team的照片，但无可否认你们每一个都走进了我的心里。

我们常常会觉得我们似乎在做着没有意义的东西，我们常常会抱怨我们付出很多报酬却很少。但我觉得，我们之间所拥有的已经不能用一般的标准来衡量。我感觉我已经拥有了全世界最好的同事和teammate。当别人不能理解为何同事之间一起去旅行之余还可以认识彼此的家人时，我知道我们已经比别人得到更多了。

一段宝贵的记忆被记录在这里，对你们的祝福不曾停止。

一起加油。

Communication

I always believe that communication plays an important role between a relationship. No matter you are friends, couples or what.

Sometimes it is tiring to carry on and maintain a relationship if your partner or your friend refuse to communicate to make the thing smooth, and this will trigger the relationship.

Too bad I don’t have partner to test this out. However I do always give advice to peoples around me, remind them how important communication between each other is.

I met people who don’t like to communicate. This made thing harder to be solved. I seldom texting a long message to people, but when I did, it shows that I care about our relationship. I don’t want those misunderstandings threaten our relationship. It is funny that you know everything is not real, end up both of you talking no more, and so does your relationship.

Even if there is no misunderstanding, perhaps there was something happened which made both of you unhappy, communication is still important. To me, the best way to solve it would be communicate to each other openly. Don’t ever keep it in your heart, it wouldn’t help on problem solving. What you feel you are unsatisfied to me, just talk to me. If you really care of our relationship, you wouldn’t let other matters to ruin it.

We can try to talk to each other, we discuss together to get the thing work.

If you care enough, you will definitely do something to rescue your relationship.

I appreciate every one of you. I hope all communication between us is going well, I hope we will have a long lasting relationship. Hope you will understand it.

我只是不想莫名其妙的失去了一段感情，我只是不想让它变成曾经。

等待离别

相信有收听MY FM的人都知道MY FM 的一位DJ， Royce陈志康昨日是最后一天主持电台节目。让我很惊讶，我看过网上的留言，每一条都是对他的不舍与祝福。当然，我也是其中一位不舍得他的听众。

正确来说我并没有特别收听他的节目，只不过就像其他人所说的，他主持节目主持了11年，我从小就开始收听MY FM, 在我可以回忆的日子当中，他已经在我的脑海里浮现。感觉如今少了一位DJ的存在，心里感觉有点失落，感觉不再完整了。

这个世界最让人觉得不可爱的地方，就是离别。那种揪心的感觉，总是那么的折磨，那么的刻骨铭心。忍不住看了他们的FB Live，有泪有笑有感动。感动的时候也忍不住与他们一起流泪。我相信被感动的人都明白那种离别的感受。

离别。想到这一幕心里总是无比沉重。那种感觉就像，你觉得原本还可以继续这样过生活，继续和同一群人相处，继续这样的生活模式，但心里却承受着这一切即将要失去的折磨。还要一份一秒的倒数着逝去的时间。离别越靠近，心里就越窒息。

Royce在电台节目中讲出的最后一句话，最后一个字，是代表了背后多么大的勇气，才能够做出当时的决定。

我踏入这间公司两年多了，从我开始适应这里的一切开始，我就开始逃避不去想离别的时候。事实就是，这里的同事实在是太好，别开相处时间的长短不说，当Royce利用最后一个星期写信给每一位身边的人时，当他在最后一个节目对每一位身边的人说出心里话时，我完全可以体会他的那种感性，感动和真诚。书信，真的是最好留着一切回忆顺道表达一切的东西。

如果我也有这么面对离别的一天，我相信我也会利用同一种方式来表达我对他们的感谢，只有这样，才能够稍微减轻我心中的沉重。

离别，好揪心的一个词。不过祝福是少不了的，无论怎样，你们始终烙印在我的记忆当中，感谢的话我就不在这里说了，留着在信纸上传达，虽然不想有这么的一天，但我知道始终会有这么的一天，锥心的一天。

给你的“信”

亲爱的德全~

这个“昵称”是从中学认识你时就开始叫起的。然后就这样迈入第九年了。

本来打算请你吃大餐，庆祝我升职加薪，只可惜来不及了。

其实呢，渐渐长大后就变得不再那么感性。许多事情都比较容易放得下。我想，如果是以前的我，我可能也会觉得万般不舍，可能告别你的时候就忍不住哭得稀里哗啦。也可能是因为知道你此行是去开拓你的事业前程，虽然不舍，但替你开心还来不及呢！

虽说如此，但我在接到你电话的同时， 听见你说即将要告别我们的同时，我还是忍不住激动，眼泪还是如此轻易就流出。感谢你在最后那一刻想起我，愿意打给我，让我在最后一刻赶回去欢送你。

想必这一段时间你内心应该也很挣扎很折磨，看着日子一天一天逝去，离别的日子却越来越近，你内心的不舍与不安一定迅速放大。

我们四个人，也不晓得是如何走在一起的。我们有过很多次的新年倒数，生日庆生，喝茶聊天，生气抱怨，伤心倾诉。所有的喜怒哀乐，生活中的酸甜苦辣，工作中的成就心酸，家庭里的大小琐事，我们彼此都了如指掌。

九年的相识，培养了我们之间的默契，也见证了我们彼此的坚持。我敢说，你是其中一个很了解我的人。我真的很喜欢我们彼此的默契，那种一个眼神或一个轻微的表情动作就知道对方接下来要说什么的默契。还有很多个时候我们都同时想到同样的东西说出同样的话语的事候。

这些年来，我们经历也不少。看着彼此成长，看着你从失落到振作，其实我感到很欣慰。其实我们彼此的感情也真的不能以三言两语来诉说，但不用紧，因为我要表达的，和你要接收的，你我都会懂的。

昨晚说起以往的趣事，我们四个都笑得开怀。我不会忘记你的心里永远有我，不会忘记你们冒着雨恐惧着黑暗也不忘为我庆祝生日。

我喜欢我们相处得自然。开心时口无遮拦，伤心时嘘寒问暖。对你，对你们，不怕说出再难听的话，也不怕说出再肉麻的情话。

你时常说，世事无常，也不知道下一秒会发生什么事。我时常说你是悲观主义，但不代表我不认同你。所以我也很感谢你出现在我的生命中，成为我生命中其中一位很重要的人物，成为我其中一位知己好友的代表。

在这里，想要让你知道的是，在外头风大雨大，遇到任何的不顺心，任何的委屈，记得要告诉我们，让我们替你分担。一些不能告诉家人的事，还有许多许多你开心的事，再无聊的事，我们都洗耳恭听。 

只要你需要，我们永远都在。

一起加油。

Warm welcome for 2017

By a blink of eyes, it turned into 2017.

Every year we do hope for the coming new year would be a better year as compared to the past one year. Every year we are so exciting to join the crowd and count down for new year regardless there are traffic congestion, crowded and sweating.

The night has over, the city was surrounded by crowded, local and international, full of noise and jubilation. Everyone was so exciting to welcome 2017. I was one of them, sweating while waiting for the fireworks to witness the arrival of 2017.

2016 wasn’t that good to me. I believe, neither to everyone. The main thing was that, I have not saved enough monies throughout the year. I have totally no idea for my spending in the past one year, I had tried my best to control my budget but yet, all my monies gone. I was speechless when I saw the bank account figures on the screen, felt regret of not doing well for the financial planning. I asked myself the reason behind, and then I found out that there were so many things that couldn’t be solved without money.

Money is really powerful as it can make most of the things go smooth. It’s just like a magic, turn everything out with a solution. Come to those situations, I have nothing to do except for spending money to solve the problems. For example my car, spending for maintenance and servicing, spending for buying a new side mirror as a result of being stolen, spending for repairing and painting as a result of crashing and etc.

On the other hand, the monies also gone for spending on renewal insurance policy, renewal licence, road tax and car insurance.

Come to the next, I was spending on PTPTN repayment and credit card repayment. And then, it will be those miscellaneous daily spending. Like petrol, breakfast lunch and dinner, fine dine sometimes, birthday celebration, farewell party, and travelling.

So, now I can figure it out where did my monies go throughout the 2016. As what I can see, most of my spending was on miscellaneous. Sometimes each person could spend up to approximately RM100 for a dinner. Think that it might be worth to spend for socializing but I realized that this concept would be wrong. Perhaps I should have more control on this area of spending.

For wealth, it was totally the worst year in my life.

For friends, sometimes it could be challenging to maintain the relationships but we still can manage to go through it. They are irreplaceable, since primary, secondary school and college, as we have been going through a lot, they are the one who are willing to take care of me and to understand me other than my families.

With Kar Hui

With Darren

With Ball ball

With HJ Bae

For families, our time of seeing each other was getting lesser and lesser. Although there are only three of us but I found that it was hard to communicate between us. I know most of the times the obstacle was from me. I locked myself inside my heart and refused to talk to you guys. I rejected the concern and love you have given out. It has been a long time where three of us hanging out together. Having dinner together became a challenge to us. I felt helpless, can’t figure out which was the best way to rescue the relationship.

For partner, I am still being single throughout 2016. It’s ok as currently I am more concern about my career and of course, monies. I believe that the right person will be there only when I became a better person and by that time, both of us will be more mature and be ready for the present of each other.

Nevertheless, I am still being grateful that all my friends and families are healthy and fine. Appreciate what I have, always work hard for what I want to have. I believe that all the bad things and bad moments were over as time goes on.

Ever heard of Pandora’s box? According to the classical mythology, all the evils and miseries of the world were flew out from this box. Believe it or not, there is always hope inside the box. Regardless of the sorrow, there is always hope comes along, as long as you believe.  

With gals, escape room

With the healthy gang

With the gang

And another gang

Girlss

College gang

NS gang - Wai Mun

With NS gang

With colleagues gang - Cotrip

With Jenny - Lostworld

With Yee Hui

With Wen Nee

With Zien Ying & Winnie

With the drunk guy

With le gang