Communication

I always believe that communication plays an important role between a relationship. No matter you are friends, couples or what.

Sometimes it is tiring to carry on and maintain a relationship if your partner or your friend refuse to communicate to make the thing smooth, and this will trigger the relationship.

Too bad I don’t have partner to test this out. However I do always give advice to peoples around me, remind them how important communication between each other is.

I met people who don’t like to communicate. This made thing harder to be solved. I seldom texting a long message to people, but when I did, it shows that I care about our relationship. I don’t want those misunderstandings threaten our relationship. It is funny that you know everything is not real, end up both of you talking no more, and so does your relationship.

Even if there is no misunderstanding, perhaps there was something happened which made both of you unhappy, communication is still important. To me, the best way to solve it would be communicate to each other openly. Don’t ever keep it in your heart, it wouldn’t help on problem solving. What you feel you are unsatisfied to me, just talk to me. If you really care of our relationship, you wouldn’t let other matters to ruin it.

We can try to talk to each other, we discuss together to get the thing work.

If you care enough, you will definitely do something to rescue your relationship.

I appreciate every one of you. I hope all communication between us is going well, I hope we will have a long lasting relationship. Hope you will understand it.

我只是不想莫名其妙的失去了一段感情，我只是不想让它变成曾经。

等待离别

相信有收听MY FM的人都知道MY FM 的一位DJ， Royce陈志康昨日是最后一天主持电台节目。让我很惊讶，我看过网上的留言，每一条都是对他的不舍与祝福。当然，我也是其中一位不舍得他的听众。

正确来说我并没有特别收听他的节目，只不过就像其他人所说的，他主持节目主持了11年，我从小就开始收听MY FM, 在我可以回忆的日子当中，他已经在我的脑海里浮现。感觉如今少了一位DJ的存在，心里感觉有点失落，感觉不再完整了。

这个世界最让人觉得不可爱的地方，就是离别。那种揪心的感觉，总是那么的折磨，那么的刻骨铭心。忍不住看了他们的FB Live，有泪有笑有感动。感动的时候也忍不住与他们一起流泪。我相信被感动的人都明白那种离别的感受。

离别。想到这一幕心里总是无比沉重。那种感觉就像，你觉得原本还可以继续这样过生活，继续和同一群人相处，继续这样的生活模式，但心里却承受着这一切即将要失去的折磨。还要一份一秒的倒数着逝去的时间。离别越靠近，心里就越窒息。

Royce在电台节目中讲出的最后一句话，最后一个字，是代表了背后多么大的勇气，才能够做出当时的决定。

我踏入这间公司两年多了，从我开始适应这里的一切开始，我就开始逃避不去想离别的时候。事实就是，这里的同事实在是太好，别开相处时间的长短不说，当Royce利用最后一个星期写信给每一位身边的人时，当他在最后一个节目对每一位身边的人说出心里话时，我完全可以体会他的那种感性，感动和真诚。书信，真的是最好留着一切回忆顺道表达一切的东西。

如果我也有这么面对离别的一天，我相信我也会利用同一种方式来表达我对他们的感谢，只有这样，才能够稍微减轻我心中的沉重。

离别，好揪心的一个词。不过祝福是少不了的，无论怎样，你们始终烙印在我的记忆当中，感谢的话我就不在这里说了，留着在信纸上传达，虽然不想有这么的一天，但我知道始终会有这么的一天，锥心的一天。

给你的“信”

亲爱的德全~

这个“昵称”是从中学认识你时就开始叫起的。然后就这样迈入第九年了。

本来打算请你吃大餐，庆祝我升职加薪，只可惜来不及了。

其实呢，渐渐长大后就变得不再那么感性。许多事情都比较容易放得下。我想，如果是以前的我，我可能也会觉得万般不舍，可能告别你的时候就忍不住哭得稀里哗啦。也可能是因为知道你此行是去开拓你的事业前程，虽然不舍，但替你开心还来不及呢！

虽说如此，但我在接到你电话的同时， 听见你说即将要告别我们的同时，我还是忍不住激动，眼泪还是如此轻易就流出。感谢你在最后那一刻想起我，愿意打给我，让我在最后一刻赶回去欢送你。

想必这一段时间你内心应该也很挣扎很折磨，看着日子一天一天逝去，离别的日子却越来越近，你内心的不舍与不安一定迅速放大。

我们四个人，也不晓得是如何走在一起的。我们有过很多次的新年倒数，生日庆生，喝茶聊天，生气抱怨，伤心倾诉。所有的喜怒哀乐，生活中的酸甜苦辣，工作中的成就心酸，家庭里的大小琐事，我们彼此都了如指掌。

九年的相识，培养了我们之间的默契，也见证了我们彼此的坚持。我敢说，你是其中一个很了解我的人。我真的很喜欢我们彼此的默契，那种一个眼神或一个轻微的表情动作就知道对方接下来要说什么的默契。还有很多个时候我们都同时想到同样的东西说出同样的话语的事候。

这些年来，我们经历也不少。看着彼此成长，看着你从失落到振作，其实我感到很欣慰。其实我们彼此的感情也真的不能以三言两语来诉说，但不用紧，因为我要表达的，和你要接收的，你我都会懂的。

昨晚说起以往的趣事，我们四个都笑得开怀。我不会忘记你的心里永远有我，不会忘记你们冒着雨恐惧着黑暗也不忘为我庆祝生日。

我喜欢我们相处得自然。开心时口无遮拦，伤心时嘘寒问暖。对你，对你们，不怕说出再难听的话，也不怕说出再肉麻的情话。

你时常说，世事无常，也不知道下一秒会发生什么事。我时常说你是悲观主义，但不代表我不认同你。所以我也很感谢你出现在我的生命中，成为我生命中其中一位很重要的人物，成为我其中一位知己好友的代表。

在这里，想要让你知道的是，在外头风大雨大，遇到任何的不顺心，任何的委屈，记得要告诉我们，让我们替你分担。一些不能告诉家人的事，还有许多许多你开心的事，再无聊的事，我们都洗耳恭听。 

只要你需要，我们永远都在。

一起加油。

Warm welcome for 2017

By a blink of eyes, it turned into 2017.

Every year we do hope for the coming new year would be a better year as compared to the past one year. Every year we are so exciting to join the crowd and count down for new year regardless there are traffic congestion, crowded and sweating.

The night has over, the city was surrounded by crowded, local and international, full of noise and jubilation. Everyone was so exciting to welcome 2017. I was one of them, sweating while waiting for the fireworks to witness the arrival of 2017.

2016 wasn’t that good to me. I believe, neither to everyone. The main thing was that, I have not saved enough monies throughout the year. I have totally no idea for my spending in the past one year, I had tried my best to control my budget but yet, all my monies gone. I was speechless when I saw the bank account figures on the screen, felt regret of not doing well for the financial planning. I asked myself the reason behind, and then I found out that there were so many things that couldn’t be solved without money.

Money is really powerful as it can make most of the things go smooth. It’s just like a magic, turn everything out with a solution. Come to those situations, I have nothing to do except for spending money to solve the problems. For example my car, spending for maintenance and servicing, spending for buying a new side mirror as a result of being stolen, spending for repairing and painting as a result of crashing and etc.

On the other hand, the monies also gone for spending on renewal insurance policy, renewal licence, road tax and car insurance.

Come to the next, I was spending on PTPTN repayment and credit card repayment. And then, it will be those miscellaneous daily spending. Like petrol, breakfast lunch and dinner, fine dine sometimes, birthday celebration, farewell party, and travelling.

So, now I can figure it out where did my monies go throughout the 2016. As what I can see, most of my spending was on miscellaneous. Sometimes each person could spend up to approximately RM100 for a dinner. Think that it might be worth to spend for socializing but I realized that this concept would be wrong. Perhaps I should have more control on this area of spending.

For wealth, it was totally the worst year in my life.

For friends, sometimes it could be challenging to maintain the relationships but we still can manage to go through it. They are irreplaceable, since primary, secondary school and college, as we have been going through a lot, they are the one who are willing to take care of me and to understand me other than my families.

With Kar Hui

With Darren

With Ball ball

With HJ Bae

For families, our time of seeing each other was getting lesser and lesser. Although there are only three of us but I found that it was hard to communicate between us. I know most of the times the obstacle was from me. I locked myself inside my heart and refused to talk to you guys. I rejected the concern and love you have given out. It has been a long time where three of us hanging out together. Having dinner together became a challenge to us. I felt helpless, can’t figure out which was the best way to rescue the relationship.

For partner, I am still being single throughout 2016. It’s ok as currently I am more concern about my career and of course, monies. I believe that the right person will be there only when I became a better person and by that time, both of us will be more mature and be ready for the present of each other.

Nevertheless, I am still being grateful that all my friends and families are healthy and fine. Appreciate what I have, always work hard for what I want to have. I believe that all the bad things and bad moments were over as time goes on.

Ever heard of Pandora’s box? According to the classical mythology, all the evils and miseries of the world were flew out from this box. Believe it or not, there is always hope inside the box. Regardless of the sorrow, there is always hope comes along, as long as you believe.  

With gals, escape room

With the healthy gang

With the gang

And another gang

Girlss

College gang

NS gang - Wai Mun

With NS gang

With colleagues gang - Cotrip

With Jenny - Lostworld

With Yee Hui

With Wen Nee

With Zien Ying & Winnie

With the drunk guy

With le gang

感动的夜晚

那一天在instastories 上传了一句话，然后那个傻婆就来找我了。信息来回闲谈了几句后，咱俩突然感叹了起来，说人长大了，有许多不同的烦恼，彼此都很怀念当初念书的时候，自由自在，没有其他的顾虑。然后我说，唉，如果你此时此刻在这里的话那该多好，我们太久没有一起倾谈，毕业后每一次见面都很仓促的完成。想起以前一起经历过许多个倾谈通宵的夜晚，真的很怀念。然后她就很即兴的说，不如我这个星期五去找你，在你家过一晚，来一次久违的pillow talk？我兴奋又期待的立刻答应了。就这样，星期五从公司赶回来迎接她的到来，还特地为了她收拾了房间，呵呵！

她依然像以前那样，性格很直爽，想到什么说什么。像以前一样，充满野心和冲劲。不过和大家吃完晚餐回家后已经是凌晨一点钟，我们俩个都很疲倦。毕竟一个星期下来因为工作都很迟睡，所以彼此都抵不过疲倦，说了两个小时的话后就充满了睡意。

就这样，两个小时的相聚，当然不能够说完彼此平日生活的点滴。时间变得很有限，但我们没办法。大概分享了在心里比较沉重的心事，彼此安慰鼓励后就睡去了。

虽然只有短短的两个小时，但在这里我想说的是，我心里其实有无数的感动和感谢的时刻。很想谢谢她在我们彼此想念的时候她可以二话不说来到我身边只为了见上那一面。很感谢她不嫌弃我的一切，从她认识我开始，不嫌弃我小小的家。可是很抱歉在凌晨一点让她抹黑爬上五楼，她心里应该很恐惧黑暗吧，在楼梯间抓我抓得好紧。所以真的很感谢她的体谅。

以前的我很愿意让大家来我家作客，但近这一两年来我再也没有这种想法。我不会再主动开口叫大伙来我家拜年，因为我不想他们感到不安和不舒服。

因此这些年来，也真的很谢谢其他陪在身边的朋友。尽管他们对我家那五层楼的楼梯感到黑暗的恐惧，他们依然愿意在我步入生日的12点钟来到我家门口为我唱生日歌。

生活上工作上时常会有许多大大小小的开心与不开心，但不开心的事情很快就被消化了，反而开心的事情就会被放大再放大。一个细心的举动，一件小小的事情就能够让我开心一整天。

生活就是这样，开心悲伤夹杂着，我们只能更坚强的度过。

期待下一次见面，一起为生活加油努力吧！