Batu Pahat + PD

离家七天后，终于回家了。

现在才发觉到，离开繁忙的城市去到城市外的小镇，就能够寻找到一种平静的感觉。

上一回很幸运的能够到诗巫一游，这次就被派到柔州的巴株巴辖赶五天的工。

虽然没有什么特别的奇遇，可就是这份平淡的感觉，在城市呆久了这种感觉竟然也是我们渴望的。

每每踏入这种小镇，总能感觉到这种平静而简单的气息。

Client的生活很规律，每天准时九点上班五点下班，就只怕我们赖着不走。

不过他们也算是蛮好相处的，虽然没有像诗巫般拥有热情地招待，但工作上合作得还算顺利。

这五天里除了赶工还是赶工。五天对我们两个人而言真的是非常非常地紧迫，我们从路上就开始讨论接下来五天的计划，希望顺着计划而行，真的能够如期赶上进度。但每一天都有不同的事情变化，我们每一天都要在酒店再次编排我们的计划来迎合不同的变化。我还蛮享受这一趟行程，我从第一天就开始说，只要我们相信，一切问题都会迎刃而解。

我希望带着成就感回去。尽管到最后真的做不完，也至少尽量做到最好，只要你相信就行了。

上网找了不同的地点来填饱我们的肚子，但没有一天是依计划行事的。女生就是善变，明明设好了要去的地点，但半路看见马来人长长又热闹的开斋档口，我们又受不住诱惑停车开始逛。买了一些不太健康但又很开胃的晚餐，就回酒店大快朵颐了。

好吧，结果第二天两个人都喉咙痛，开始发热气了。亡羊补牢，开始不断点凉茶喝，只希望在这赶工期间不好病倒。

巴株巴辖感觉好像没什么特别的东西吃，我们五天都吃得很平淡，那里食物的售价也很便宜。五天的午餐都在公司附近同一间茶餐室解决，连老板和卖面的uncle也认得我们了。知道我们只呆五天，还不忘为我们倒数，呵呵！

那里的人算是温暖，卖面的Uncle很幽默，总是和我们说些有的没的。走这一趟，最大的收获可能就是邂逅了这些简单又善良的人。最后一天，卖面的uncle还送了一碗玻璃生菜给我们吃。霎时觉得很温暖。

就这样，结束了五天四夜的巴株巴辖工作和行程，算是尽力做完我们该做的，没有白白让计划浪费掉吧！

然后就继续在PD渡过了一个充实又颓废的周末。

如计划般星期五从巴株巴辖看完Finding Dorry直上PD，然后就开始了颓废的生活。

睡醒吃，吃饱玩，饿了吃，吃了玩，直到深夜抱着疲倦又不睁不开的眼睛心不甘情不愿的回房睡觉。大佬的父母很热情很好客，准备了许多好吃的给我们，让我们更多精力去玩~

发觉我桌球的球技又进步了点，开始喜欢这项游戏，可以一口气打好几场。

也可能，这些是我能尽量抓住的短暂回忆，因此我会特别投入特别热情。

不要想有没有下次，把握当下，珍惜所拥有。

Baked durian - The first time ever~

Baked broccoli - Also the first time ever~ 

Zinc and ZiHuei

Dai Lou and Derrick

Boss and Poon

With le team

Playing monkey

最后，病毒还是入侵了，也幸好，一直到我要回家的当天才开始向我展开袭击。

我知道一定是水喝不够又熬夜又半夜游泳所致，也很幸好的请了连假，刚好能够让自己充分的休息让自己痊愈。

我们之间又多了个回忆，谢谢你们。

照片

难得忙里偷闲，可以处理电话中累积了一段时间的照片。

我是个很看重照片的人，嗯，应该说，我是个很看重回忆的人，因此我很看重每一张照片。
很庆幸活在一个科技发达照片泛滥的时代。如今一个同样的镜头，我们都可以摄下数十百张同样的照片，有时候还真有点无言。

不过我还是很珍惜每一张照片中的人、事、物。
收集照片是从中学时代开始培养出来的。

以前参加乐队，随着电话日新月异的拍摄功能，生活照片开始累积得越来越多。
看似很平凡的照片，当你坚持把它留起来，几年后再翻出来看，那种感觉是难以形容的，就像我整理完所有照片，把它们一一按次序、按日期归入档案后再点击重看，那种感觉是一样的。

感触最深的有两组，一组是如今还和我生活息息相关的工作照片。虽然与这群人儿相处下来才一年多，但由于长时间的工作和工作性质的关系，彼此的感情拉近得很快。我时常感叹我很幸运的遇到这群人，他们都是善良的人，因此我工作一年来算是相当的顺利。

所以，当回顾一年多以来所拍过的照片，有很大的感触。一年多，我多么的想我们会一起工作在更多个明天，但这应该不会实现了。他们将会一个一个的离开，那最开心的时光再也不会完整。那天突然觉得，遇见他们就像看见流星，既短暂却美丽。我还来不及捕捉大家更多的影子，还来不及去更深入了解每个人的世界，现实就响起了离别的歌曲。

另一组照片，还不是乐队么？
其实看着旧照片，心里有丝丝的担忧，害怕自己有朝一日终究会把那种怀念的感觉给忘掉。
想起六、七年前那种亢奋的感觉，如今已经随着岁月的流逝几乎冲得一干二净了。

我开始这个部落格的第一篇文章，还在感慨队员一个个离开，如今大家的生活还不是造样过？那些每天一见面就谈乐器聊音乐的日子也似乎不在了。现在一年一度的乐队花式操比赛；以前我们非常看重，可以牺牲任何时间学业美貌汗水拼命练习的花式操，现在也已经没有人去在乎了。

怀念，依旧。
我只怕，不再怀念。

人心

自从工作开始越来越忙后，更新部落格的次数也越来越少。可能部分生活空间都被工作占据了吧，写出来的也只是工作，灵感不再。

偶尔上来扫灰尘时，只能把零碎的事情凑在一起成为一篇文章。
经过四月在公司里的小风波，我的意志终于动摇了。有时候不是说放弃，只是现在打工一族的判断，大部分都会建立在利益与对待方面。当感受到自己遭受到不公平对待而利益方面又没有及时得到补偿时，就可能是离开的时候。

利益对我来说还好，我个人会比较注重人事。
开始时的想法，是想再待下去，和公司一起度过这一切，尽管工作再繁重再困难，但因为我不是一个人，所以永远都有动力让我做下去。开始动摇是因为，自己感受到不公平对待。虽然对我没有直接的影响，但看着身边的人所受的待遇与付出的比较之下，心中就开始越来越失望。

一间好的公司，必须要懂得珍惜员工。一群为你拼死拼活，不计酬劳的员工。尽管职位再小的员工要离职，也必须要主动去了解关心当中的原因，而不是抱着一脸不屑的态度说出我们多的是人这一些话，那足以证明无论我为公司多么的努力卖命去做好手头上的工作，到最后还是没有人会珍惜或看见你的这一番心意。

好吧，以上所说的都不是我亲身经历的，但我会以此作为考量，来考虑这间公司是否还适合让我继续待下去。开始有了这样的想法，就会有一个大概的计划，然后心中不再彷徨下一步究竟该怎么做了。

最近看见面子书上的一片文章：一位伟大的行为艺术家麻醉自己6小时，在这6小时内让一群人们对她作出任何事。我读完之后有点震惊，因为一件很简单的事情，最后得到了一个让人心酸的结论：人心是丑恶的。

这位行为艺术家，饱受6小时的折磨，她脑袋是清醒的，流着泪就这样看着人们如何伤害她，剪破她的衣服、刺破她的皮肤，甚至有人用手枪抵着她的颈部，差一点就杀了她。

她说了一句话：为什么每个人都选择伤害，但却没有一个人给予拥抱？这句话读得我很心酸。

我也是一个人，这个实验证实了人的心是丑恶的，因此我的心也是丑恶的。
我们不干坏事，是因为人类自己定下了许多规矩让人们跟着去遵守，但干坏事的人还是有很多。

文章的另一个结论，是说这个世界上，不能够让人们自由发挥，不能够没有规矩，这样人类还能够勉强的和平共处。

这篇文章我只读了一次，但让我印象很深刻。
感谢那位伟大的行为艺术家，让我那么实在的知道这一切。

人心丑恶，但感谢还是有部分人很努力的想要做好人，包括我。
我想做一个想象中的自己，意识到自己改变时，我还是很努力的让自己做该做的事。

加油。

五月的情绪

工作越久，渐渐发觉似乎会失去越多，无论是时间，活动，还是朋友。

无可否认我的生活已经被工作填满。也不知从几时开始，我甚至连出外旅行也把电脑和工作随身携带。固定的每一天就算是周末公共假期也一定会开电脑做工，工作永无止尽的堆积着。

其实我并不害怕这样的繁忙，反而我觉得我的生活变得相当的充实。
只是，我更害怕我会因为这样而失去原本拥有的。

人非圣贤，我很想抓着我现在所拥有的，不想失去任何一方面。
但却发觉我做不到完美。

融入社会工作，我也不晓得是我的思想与身边的人是否渐行渐远，是我开始变了吗？
其实我似乎渐渐意识到，我自己走远了，我可不想这样。

我有点在无形中挣扎。突然发觉许多事情真的不在自己掌控中。
随着时间每分每秒的流逝，每一天都有不同的事情发生和应付，然后我又好像即将要回到当初那迷茫的时候。

那么快的又说一年了，我发觉我还真的蛮喜欢这份工作，只可惜，好景不长。
如果可以，我希望我可以坚持走下去，我更希望我的工作伙伴们可以陪同我一起走下去，但这些也真的不在我掌控中。

最近公司出现了一些状况，身在水深火热中，每当听见有人要离开，每当身边的他们开始在讨论，我就觉得很烦燥。我不喜欢听见那么没有士气的讨论，一边工作一边聆听大家吐出来的苦水和抱怨，我甚至有点窒息，想要逃离到一个静得无声的空间自己独处，继续手头上的工作。我明白这是一种逃避的现象。说实在的，我的心告诉我，我不想他们离开，但我什么也做不了，我更加不能自私的说出一些挽留的话，而只能精神上支持他们的决定。

这段时间就是不断说服自己去接受一个接一个的离开。
或许我也即将会踏上这条路，在我挣扎过后。

有时候很庆幸自己拥有许多正能量。有时候情绪来袭，真的很压抑时，让自己睡前哭上一场，哭得好凄凉，睡醒又是新的一天。原来坏情绪真的可以随着眼泪流出来，第二天的感觉是良好的。

最近不断想找人讲话，我知道我心中累计了太多事情，我必须一次过痛快地说出来。
找不到人时，还是很感激我妈当我的聆听者给我许多中肯的意见。
感激我还有一个生活上的精神支柱。

她说这是一个过渡时期，静下来观察，耐心等待，总会有一个完美的落幕。
我也相信，一切都会好起来。
我依然感恩我有一份让我变得更充实的工作。

加油。

What is so special about Sibu?

Last week I had been assigned to an outstation job in Sibu, Sarawak. This was the first time I been to the East Malaysia and I was quite exciting for having this chance to pay a visit to the other part of Malaysia.

The first step I stepped on Sarawak’s land was the Sibu Airport, immediately I felt the peacefulness and harmony are surrounding the town. We gonna work for 5 days in this place, and here to start our journey in Sibu.

Madam Teng was the one who is responsible to pick us up from airport and she was also the first person that has connected with us in Sibu. She is a kind and soft lady, with beautiful smile to welcome us in the airport, and started introducing to us about this small and peaceful town.

With Madam Teng

All I can conclude about Sibu if I were being questioned was that Sibu is a town that full of tasty local foods. We had never experienced starve in the past 5 days but we were asked to eat all the ways. We had our breakfast in those hawker stall every day, with a bowl of noodle and tea before we head to office to start working for the day. After few hours we will be leading to have our lunch; and again after few hours we will be leading to have our dinner. Our feeling was like: What? We gonna eat again? The breakfast we had in the morning hasn’t been digested but we were asked to go for our lunch; our breakfast and lunch haven’t been digested and we were invited to have our dinner. So all about our life over there was eating, eating and eating.

Prawn Mee - A big big prawn!

Sibu Kampua noodle

Kampua flat noodle

Kampua noodles in red

Curry laksa

Kuey Teow

Foo Chow Kom Pia

I have been eating so full for every day and reaching hotel by around 9pm or 10pm, and I have to stand and walk for at least half an hour before I took shower and rest on bed.

Very soon I could felt that my waist was getting bigger and weight was getting heavier. Oh gosh, I have to eat apple for breakfast lunch and dinner after I came back to KL, I swear.

Overall, Sibu had given me a very nice experience and great impression. Peoples over there are nice, friendly and kind. All the races were living peacefully, respectful, and simply. I really fall for this town for the simple life, this is what I always looking for and hoping for to happen in real in KL, but undeniably we still need times for evolution to become a better place.

Sibu peoples are really proud of this small and simple town. The life over there is chill and relaxes which is just so difference from the tension life in KL. The number of peoples and cars are lesser, perhaps most of the teenagers were working in cities, therefore the population is lesser in Sibu, and this does contribute to the reason why you never seen there is traffic jam in Sibu. They are tolerant and cooperative, they always have the same mindset and same dream regardless the different races and religion, I believe they always aim to have a better government, to fight for a better life for Sibu, and that is why they seen every coming state election as a big matter in Sarawak.

We enjoyed our foods and life in Sibu for the past 5 days. The foods in Sibu are quite special which we couldn’t find any in KL.

I truthfully felt the kindness and love from Sibu peoples. They are just so cute and nice in welcoming us and bringing us for good foods. I even not spending one cent for the 5 days. This is such a nice experience to me, a chance for me to see the special of Sibu, to know the people in Sibu.

We see, we listen and we learn. We had a lot of stories sharing in these 5 days. There were a lot of interesting stories from Madam Teng and her family, regarding her husband and her sons, and she takes care of us very much; the social view and experiences from Mr Eddy and his Philippine wife, a cute couple ever be. Because of him we had exposed to the local culture of Sibu, by bringing us to one of the largest market (pasar) in South East Asia, revealing the interesting part of Sibu. For example the way they sell the chickens with the chicken legs tied up, and the chicken being wrapped in spool, arranged tidily in a row. Their market is clean, hygiene and huge. 

Chicken stall

The cute hawker  

XD

Mr Andrew, a nice and soft person who led us to the project site, explained everything to us in his full patient, trying hard to introduce all the good foods to us. 

Site visit

XD

Thanks to Mr Simon, the project manager, and the boss, Mr Siah for bringing us for dinner at the last night, ordered all the famous local foods and cuisine just to let us have a try, keep asking us to eat as much as we can, keep adding the foods to our plates. Another very-full night I had in Sibu.

Curry fish head

Chinese salmon? This is really nice.

Dessert- A very tall mixed fruit ice blended.

Seriously, I do miss the 5-day life very much after I came back to KL. There is so much different between the two places. I miss the foods, the life and the peoples in Sibu. What a great exposure and memory built over there.

These are what I’ve gained in Sibu. Definitely fall for this place. Hope everything everyone is fine, hope to see them again.    

Our hotel - Kingwood

Hotel with river view at night

Breakfast nearby market

Foo Chow delicacy - Ding Bian Hu

Three of us =)

I do love my job very much, at least it allows me to see the different part, meet the different people in my life. 

I do love the people around me, they are always the good guider and people who take care of me very well.

Appreciate every single seconds we spent together, and our memories.