I remember

New job has been started for two weeks, it’s all about to adapt the new environment. Not so sure how long it would take me to adapt the new company, it seems like the current situation would probably be the same in one month’s time.

I was having dinner with the SunProp team (2019) in last Friday. Haven’t been seen them in awhile, most of them looks slimmer now. Regardless of the work stress, they are still a happy bunch of peoples who can always joke around and laugh on everything.

I have been missing this atmosphere very much. My current company is unable to provide the atmosphere like this, there is no big team in the company, most of the colleagues are elder. I still need some times to cope with. I always understand that when you lose something, you will gain something back.

Anyhow, this post is to express my feeling of missing the team. Of course the memories still very fresh to me, it was just few months ago. I have made a video to summarise 4 years memories in 5 minutes, also serve the purpose of reminding myself in future that I had such a good memory ever in my working life.

Here you go.

I am blessed

整整三个月后，明天又重新开启了拼搏的日子，如今的心情，只能说对我的床有着万般眷恋，我绝对会想念早晨升起的太阳。

无业的这三个月，其实真的闲着在家。还是蛮内疚自己的选择蹉跎了三个月的时间，但如果再一次选择，我依然会做出同样的决定。

找工的过程也蛮感触的，曾经有过彷徨无助，因为不知道究竟几时才会得到工作机会。有时一天也等不到一通电话的心情，真的挺难熬的。尤其是夜晚入睡时脑中总会有许多想法，月黑风高时最容易胡思乱想，然后每一晚身体里的天使和魔鬼都会在对话，让我不能安心入睡，每一晚都在煎熬中睡着。

这一份新工作，也可以说是有一点的运气，好在公司急着要人替代岗位吧，所以四轮面试都顺利通过了。真的没想到觉得最不可能的那份工作，竟然还真成了我最终的选择。活了二十多年，其实很多时候都会遇见相似的情况，觉得最不可能的，终究变成可能。

就告诉自己，不要拒绝任何机会，任何没有接触过的领域，都可能成为以后主宰自己命运的踏脚石。我是一直秉持着这样的信念过来的。

也想说，这份工作是我今年最大的生日礼物，因为那是在我生日的前一天收到的通知。让我整颗悬在半空中的心顿时有了停泊的港岸。

今年的生日，除了这重大的收获，也伴随着身边爱我的人的陪伴。真心觉得非常庆幸，幸运之神总是眷顾着自己，把所有好的事情都一一降临在我身上。

无论如何，想对自己说，努力做好自己的本分，前几年所付出的努力，将会是巩固了你基础的付出，请自己将在前公司所学到的，带到新公司好好发挥，保持中庸的学习态度，我相信所有的努力都不会白费的。

感恩身边所拥有的，还有对我付出过的人们，谢谢你们的祝福和关心，真心感恩有你们一路来的陪伴。我不晓得我何德何能拥有你们，只能告诉自己尽自己能力去好好珍惜每一个爱我的人。

我们一起加油。