Sunday 23 February 2014

看电影

电影,我并没有多大的兴趣。
起初我还有点抗拒,觉得不值得浪费十多块去电影院看一部电影,因为只是时间的问题,反正迟些时候人们就能从各个管道下载或购买这些电影。

后来,我开始试着接受。
真正让我对电影有兴趣的,就是《铁达尼号》。很意外的和朋友一起在电影院看了这部电影,那个大荧幕,那一幕幕壮观的画面,都还历历在目。是这部电影,改变了我起初对看电影的概念。

因此我有了新的一个观念,就是,除非那部电影是很震叹的,效果很抓眼球剧情高潮迭起的,我才会有兴趣到电影院去观看,不然我真的不会花钱去看一部故事平凡又简单的电影。

再来,我发现与自己一起看电影的对象也是很重要的。
我出入电影院的次数屈指可数,但我绝对清楚我想要什么样的人陪我看电影。
当然除了这种刺激性的电影,我也喜欢故事内容很有意义的电影。


就像《铁达尼号》,如果它第二次上映,尽管是一样的剧情,尽管我已经看过了,我还是会选择再看一次,而下一次,我希望和我想要的人一起去。我想和对方分享整部电影的高潮迭起、心情起伏,从微笑到流泪,从温馨到感动。这算是我一个对未来小小的愿望。

现在有另一部电影,《一路有你》。大家一定不陌生,而身边大部分人一定也已看过了。
这部戏虽然是本地制作,但它获得非常好的评语。因此我一直很想找机会去看。

但有点可惜,这部戏快要下映了,我还是没有找到陪我去看的人。
身边的好朋友都已经和别人去看了,哦,是的我迟了一步。

身边朋友都知道我不太爱看电影,因此很少人约我去看电影。而我也不曾要求过要看什么电影,但《一路有你》是一部我很想看的电影,或许我觉得它的剧情很温馨,很有含义。
很难得很难得我会主动约人,我冒着被拒绝的风险,约了一个很难应付的人,但还是不成。
于是,我决定不看了。

也许你觉得我小题大作,一部电影,看了就好,与人无关。
但我不能,尽管电影题材再好,故事再吸引,不对的人就是不一样的感觉。
我希望一部有意义的电影,也会由一些有意义的人陪我一起看,这样感觉才能完整。

就是基于这种种原因,我最后选择不看 。
对,我宁愿不看,也提不起别的心情与别人看。

我不会觉得遗憾,如果要说遗憾,与不对的人看电影对我来说才是一种遗憾吧?
因此心情还可以保持轻松愉快,因为我还是期待着下一部电影的到来,期待对的人与我一起看。


Wednesday 19 February 2014

一路有你

嗯,新年的天气似乎已开始褪去,天上下起的雨已经开始洗去大地上的热气,天气再次变化了。
这是个循环,季节性的循环,尽管大马没有国外的一年四季,天气依然变幻无常。

Emm, the weather during CNY is started to go and the the sky is started to rain to get rid of the heat. The weather is changing. This is a recycle, a seasonal recycle even if there is no such four seasons in Malaysia, but the weather keeps changing.

最近有太多的故事,想要在此作分享。
曾我还未忘记,先说说友情吧!

There are a lot of stories to be shared here. Before I forget it, let's talk about friendship.

我真的心怀感激,我能够在这个充满矛盾、复杂的世界上遇上与我频道相同的人。
朋友之间,不只是要频道相同,还要懂得适当的谦让。最基本的礼貌、尊重及信任都是维持友情中不能少的元素。

I sincerely appreciate that I met the peoples who are same channel with me in this contradicting and complicating world. It's not only about the issue of "channel" but there is humility among friends. The most basic courtesy, respect and trust are the main elements to maintain a friendship.


















嘉慧,是我在小学认识的朋友。她现在是我一个能够分享一切事物的人。
我们讨论的东西,上及天文地理,下及身边事物。
我们愿意互相倾听、包容、帮助、鼓励。
我在她身上学会了许多,最让我印象深刻应该就是学会大方。
函颖也是一位教会我大方的人。
以前的我把钱看得比较重,可是现在反而一点也不再计较。的确,不再计较这些身外物,人也变得轻松多了。
虽然我们之间不至于像家人般亲密,但你为我做的一切,我都不会忘记。
包括我不会忘记我一封简讯一个电话,你就会毫无考虑的答应我的请求。
那天早晨电话吵醒了你,还要求你特地驾车到我家载我和我妈出去,我真的很抱歉。
但你却二话不说,为了我的一个不情之请,改变了原本的计划与时间。
我真的很感动,因为不是每一位在身边的朋友都能够这样付出。当然,有你一位就真的很足够了。你我不是家人,不是男女朋友,但你却不断地帮助我,真的非常感谢。

Kar Hui, who was my primary school mate, also a person whom I can share her everything about my life. We used to discuss everything, perhaps astrology and geography. We are willing to listen, forgive, help and encourage each other. I have learnt so many things from her, including to be generous. It's true, I never ever care of those physical stuff such as money and I felt relax after I get rid of all those fusses. Although we are not close like family but I will never forget what you have done for me. I will not forget that you just simply promised to help me out because of a message or a call. I am sorry for awakening you on that morning and requesting for fetching me and my mother to town. You just promised me by changing your initial planned time and schedule and promised to take us up and finally you came. I felt so touch because I knew that not everyone around me can do this for me, even if it was not a big deal. And I felt satisfied and enough to have you as my friend, you always show your kindness to me though we are not family or couple.   


















德全,这几天也是非常感谢你。感谢你和Ah Ball昨晚听我发牢骚,同样的牢骚讲了一遍又一遍,但你们还是不厌其烦的听进去,并给于我最好的意见,我真的非常感谢。
谢谢德全那么的明白我,一直到今早起床,第一句想起的话就是你告诉过我的,就是那么的一句,让我心情变轻松了。你告诉我一切只需要时间,你能够明白我,这是我非常高兴的。
我喜欢能够倾听我的人,谢谢你们。

Darren, another person whom I would like to say thank you to. Thank you Darren and Ah Ball for listening to me last night. I keep repeating the same thing yet both of you were listening and giving me the most pertinently advice, I will appreciate it. Thanks for your understanding. The first sentence that came to my mind in this early of the morning when I woke up was what you told me last night, and it made my day. You told me everything has to depends on time and I need it, I need some times to accommodate the changes. This is great, and I like the person who can listen to me, once again, thanks.

其实我觉得我是个不能抱怨太多的人,因为我拥有的已经很多了,太充足了。
对于朋友,我不能够说我很有义气,我不知道如何去运用“义气”这个东西,我只知道在他们需要我的时候,我会在他们身边支持他们,尽我所能帮助他们,让最好的结果呈现。

I knew I couldn't keep blaming too much as I already possessed as much as I want, it is more than enough.
For friend, I couldn't be saying that I am very supportive, the only thing I knew is to support them, try my best to help them whenever they need me to have the best outcome.

我不喜欢吵架,翻脸,尽管朋友间发生了一些争执,我也希望一切可以被时间冲淡。

今天我突然的就说出了这样的一段话:
我们人生中一直都存在着遗憾。就像朋友,因为一些事情而不再联系,彼此的世界再也没有对方。这是一个永远存在的遗憾。或许在当时,眼中所看出来的一切都很让人生气,让人觉得自己可以失去这个朋友,但是我觉得当人到了七老八十,甚至变成一缕尘埃后,什么事情都变得微不足道了。回头看,可能会一笑置之,也可能会笑自己当初的傻气,但却笑不走那留下的遗憾。

I don't like argument and fell out, I hope that time will be the solution for all the problems rising up. 

Today I quoted this:
There is regret that always exist in our life. Just like friend, they would not be friend anymore after some problems emerged, and this would regret them forever or for a life time. Perhaps it is annoying and infuriating at that time the problems rise up, and it makes people to decide they rather to lose this friend and it would not cause something bad. However, when we reached the old age, or when we left this world, only we realised that everything can be solved and it doesn't matter. Look back to our life, we may laugh at what we did, and the foolish decision we ever made, but we can't laugh to deny and wipe off the things made our life regretful.

我们人生说长不长,说短不短,为什么还要留下那么多的遗憾?世上那么多人,却让你结识到现在的朋友,终于经营起了之间的友情,却因为一些“小事”而断绝来往。
不值得。

Our life is not that long, but not that short as well. Why do we want to regret so much on ourselves? There are numerous peoples in this world, and you met your own friends, building and maintaining the current friendships and you just let them go at the end just because of some small matters.
It's not worth.

当然我也明白,不是每件事都可以大事化小,小事化无,但往往事情很多时候,可以利用很多种方法去避免的。如果真的不想让友情结束,人就变得不再计较那么多。

Of course I knew, not that everything can be forgave, and forgotten. However there is such a moment, we can have many ways to solve them. And if you hope to continue your friendship, you would not be so calculative.

但当然每个人的观念不一样,我是以朋友为准,其他的事情都可商量,毕竟我不想因为一些可以避免、可以被解决的事情而影响之间的友情。

But of course there are different opinions for different persons. For me I will rank my friends as the first, then go with any other things. I just don't want my friendships being influenced by some issues which could be avoided or overcome.

可能退一步海阔天空,只要让那一步,直到七老八十两个老朋友还是可以坐在一起对饮,那是人生中多么畅快的事?是好是坏,随着时间一切都过去了。只要不是杀人放火众叛亲离,是否一切争执都有希望被解决?

Perhaps you may step back one step and maybe because of this one step you took, the situation or the outcome could be changed. And two friends could still having their teas by sitting face to face to each other for many years later, and how good the feels are for having this scene? Good or bad, just let it be with the time pass. So long as your friend not murdering or betraying, is it true to say that everything could be solved?

Friendship isn't how you forget, but how you forgive.
Not how you listen, but how you understand.
Not how you seem but how you feel.
Not how you let go, but how you hold on!

我只希望我身边的朋友能够全部一起携手走到老,一天的朋友,一辈子的朋友。
尽管争执不是发生在我身上,我都希望而我也会尽最大努力去维持之间的感情。
或许我是多管闲事?我只能说,我只是不想我身边的朋友在人生中有多一个遗憾。

I just truthfully hope that all the friends around me can go through all the obstacles together as long as possible. Friend today, friend forever. 
Although I do not have argument with my friends, but I hope and I will try my best to maintain the relationship among us and others.
Perhaps I am a busy body? Who'd care? The only thing I can say is, I don't want any of them around me to regret themselves. 

Tuesday 18 February 2014

牢骚

天,终于又让我过了一关。尽管只是个小小的期中考,但却不知曾几何时我开始感觉透不过气来了。忙,其实也可以让我们暂时忘记许多事情,开心与不开心,都记不起了,没有多余的时间与心情去想起,因此忙也未尝不是件好事。

Gosh, it comes to the end. Although this is just a mid term test, but I have forgotten since when I started to feel suffocation. Busy, in other words, can temporarily keep the matters away, no matter happy or upset, there won't be remembered. There is no time and no mood to remember those, and this would turn up to be a good sign.

看多了别人的部落格,eh? 才发现原来有图画的部落格更吸引人。
不可否认,现代人都逐渐忽略了文字的存在,每每在呈现一样东西时,一定会附上图片共参考,还有五彩缤纷,而文字成了一种衬托。

After searching for others' blogs, eh? Just realised that it would be more attractive by presenting pictures on the blog. We couldn't deny that nowadays the word is being neglected since there are pictures and colours for reference on everything to be presented, and word turned out to be the supporting one.

我是否也该开始不断的上载图片、照片、自恋照?呵呵,应该不会“不断”,只是会“偶尔”吧!
部落格就像日记,有附加图片的日记应该更显生动与吸引。

Does it means that I have to upload those pictures, photos and my selfie as well? Haha, maybe yes, but it will be occasionally instead of frequently. Blog is as a diary, therefore it will be more attractive and vivid by presenting word with pictures.

最近心情起伏蛮大的,做人难。
不知道什么时候该理智,什么时候该疯狂。
活在世上,总是在意身外物,每一分每一秒都活在别人的眼光下。

My emotion changed frequently in recent, and I found that, it is hard to human being.
Not sure when I should be rationale and so do crazy.
Live in the word, we are always care about the things beyond us. We live under the vision and criticism of others for every minutes and seconds.

有多少人是不在意别人的眼光?
我也很在意。明明别人要怎麽看是别人的事,但自己却会不自在起来。
说是说不必在意,但做起来又是另外一回事了。

How many peoples could say that they do not care about the vision from others?
I am very care too though I knew there is the issues with others and yet I can't deal it with easily.
Some one said this doesn't have to be care about, however it is hard when you have to do it.

我能够把握自己想要的吗?

Could I get what I want?


其实这世界根本就是个充满矛盾的瓶子,或黑或白,却夹杂着缤纷色彩,不矛盾么?

Actually this world is a bottle that full of contradiction, it got black and white, yet it still got other colours. Isn't it contradicting?

是否每次决定权落在自己手里时,我就得听天由命?

Do I have to follow what's the God tell whenever I have the right to decide everything?



相信抛硬币吗?字和花,看看谁映进我眼帘。

And, do you believe in coin throwing? Word and flower, let's see which side to be shown.


温习时无聊时逃避时自恋时。

Photos during revision, bored, escaping, narcissism.

Saturday 15 February 2014

菜肴惹的祸


这是家常小菜。嗯,每个人都懂。。。
这可是我自己准备的呢!熟悉我的人应该知道我以后要嫁厨师,因为我不擅于烹饪。但自从妈妈工作后,空余时间我就会自己做菜。我想,这应该是个好的开始?

这是我的第一次。
第一次在厨房忙了几个小时,就是在想办法弄那几颗卤蛋。
我从来就不会这些,只好上网找料理方法。相比起以前,家里的东西及材料少了许多。因此我只能用厨房里最普通的调味料来模仿网上所教的来调味。

椰菜花与午餐肉也是在厨房里找到的仅有的材料。接下来越煮就越有灵感,不断想着我要怎样盛盘,怎样装饰这些平凡小菜,才能让用餐的人有别一番风味。

只可惜,好像没有人懂得欣赏它们呢!
不对呀,家里从来就没有人试过把这些家常小菜拿来装饰,煮好了吃进肚里就算了,现在排列得那么整齐应该会蛮惊喜的吧?

但看来又是我一个人想太多了。
家常小菜只不过是用来填饱肚子的菜肴,而不是用来欣赏的。
这一点小心思小玩意儿只是让我用来打发时间,其实我更应该用原有的时间去准备下星期的考试。

对于越在乎的人,我显得越小气。
我不是应该更会想吗?二十多岁的人了,怎么还是与自己闹情绪?
父母亲工作回来很累了吧?生活上的一些烦恼让他们忧心了吧?我是应该要懂得体谅吧?

尽管父母亲说了自己不太喜欢听的话,也可以当玩笑一样听进去吧?
是否一个会想的孩子,就不应该出现这种负面情绪?

还是同样的问题。每一次的情绪,都得压迫。
因为我考虑得太多。我想痛痛快快地爆发我的不满,我也想我自己是一个懂事成熟情商高的人,因此很多时候很多情况我都不知道我应该要怎么去表现。

但其实我并不是要你们的赞许,我只是想看见你们有点惊喜的反应。我只是想让你们回家后因为一些平凡的东西变得不一样而惊喜。

我知道我必须要体谅你们在外工作一天的劳累;生活上遇到的不顺心。因此我知道我花的一点小心思到最后徒劳无功了。你们因为种种原因根本没有多余的心思去欣赏其余微不足道的东西。我明白,但我有些失落。

不过没关系吧,我还是把我的第一次,第一次花在烹饪的心思给记起来了。尽管没有人懂,还有我,只要自己没放弃就好了。而且,我觉得蛮好吃的啊!我要找懂得欣赏自己的人,我需要一个能够包容我的缺点但珍惜我的好的人。当然,不只是烹饪。



Thursday 13 February 2014

生活篇

嗯,准一个月没更新过了,想不到这里错过了新年。
那么看来我像是忙了一个月,也不知道忙什么,到头来什么都没有。

虽然今年农历新年气氛没往年的那么浓,但我还是从年三十晚忙到初十开学。
开始喜欢及享受新年期间一年聚一次的亲戚朋友,尽管一年才见那么的一次,还是可以聊得很尽兴。新年期间不断的往外跑,每一天都从早出到晚,惊觉只有这一年才这么能跑。不过这样才抵消了没有过年气氛的新年。

最终ACCA成绩放榜了,奇迹般的生存了下来,虽然还欠那么的一科,但我已经很开心。
不过这也是对自己没有太高要求的后果,别人在考自己也在考,别人能够同时通过三科自己却还是欠那么的一点,是否应该反省了?
但不管了,我要享受生活,享受念书,我不要有过多的压力。考试要及格是对自己的一种承诺,考不好是对自己的一种磨练,因此,只能对自己说再接再厉,不及格总好过没有目标。

不看面子书,还真不知道情人节又到了。
这有一点点圣诞节的气氛,有种温馨的感觉夹杂在内。
虽然我没有伴侣,但是我还是能感受到一点这甜蜜的氛围。

部落格依然那么冷清,使我的热情也逐渐消失。
但我还是会继续写,直到有一天,我的故事写完为止。

不因为什么而写,只因为我喜欢。